So after spending the entire weekend feeling sorry for myself and (involuntarily) lying awake pondering the intricacies of human nature, I feel mostly at peace with the events from Friday. I owe a lot of that to you guys for your support and kind words. Nobody gets it like another nurse does and I felt SO much better after seeing your comments and emails.

To answer the common question - I have decided that I will not pursue the matter against my instructor. I am heading into another full-time clinical rotation on Tuesday (vascular surgery, yay!) -- with a different instructor, thank god -- and I just don't have the fortitude to deal with ongoing illogical bullshit. Even if I did call for some kind of inquiry, it would be my word against hers, and how can you argue with someone like that?

I would prefer to be that person who stood up for the masses and blew the whistle... but my school has a history of blackballing, and I just don't see how I could win. One more year of this and I will be answering only to me: ugrn, RN. And CARNA. :)

I did submit anonymous feedback on my instructor before my evaluation. Our school asks for feedback on all instructors up to the day before final evaluations. I was extremely fair in my assessment and delivery, maybe TOO fair considering how she was with my evaluation, but I think my feedback is more likely to be taken seriously than someone who rants unintelligibly.

My mark isn't terrible. I got a B. I think I deserved much more than that, but it's acceptable. If I escalate my concerns with the ivory tower, it would be a whole lot of BS just for the sake of 'being right'. If my instructor had been someone I looked up to or wanted to emulate, I might care more, but frankly I think her bedside manner stinks. I don't need her to validate my hard work. I didn't then and I don't now.

FYI, because this past couple of posts have been pretty specific about one instructor (she'd obviously know it was about her), I have been carefully monitoring incoming traffic. If I feel like I may have been discovered I will be temporarily pulling down my blog or removing some posts.


Anyway, enough about that. Happy birthday to my blog! It turned 3 on February 3rd. I got it a birthday cake because it has grown so much since that first post. I really have to thank all of my readers for sticking around this long. It blows my mind to think of how far I've come since that day. One more year... one more year... then I will have to change my blog name!

In celebration of my blogiversary, I tweaked my page design a bit. I like it. It's a lot cleaner than the last one, which was the result of the various glare and texture filters in Artisteer being vomited all over the page... I also whipped up a slightly modified header since  I discovered the joy of Adobe Illustrator. Anyone else want a shiny logo? I'm having a great time with it, lol. Too bad it costs $1500 for a licence. I have 28 more days to enjoy the trial. :)

For some reason I have been getting a ton of visits from Israel coming to learn about cranial nerves. One of my friends is Israeli. She showed me some pictures of the homeland and I was amazed by how many sexy people live there. Wow. Hello, good looking people, and welcome.

I do have a post coming for the CNSA Conference recap. However I have a date with football, beers, and wings so I will have to catch you up later :) Happy Superbowl Sunday!