Monday, June 29, 2009
Received in the mail today
Dear Undergrad RN,
The English 108 Committee is very pleased to inform you that you have won the $200 prize given to the student who wrote the best essay in English 108. We were impressed with your careful analysis of current right to die legislation and with your skillful integration of material from your sources. Your essay is well written and clearly organized. We enjoyed reading it.
OMG! The paper they are talking about is this one. I am just so amazed. English 108 is a requisite for almost every first year student. That includes nursing, arts, English, journalism, et al. faculties! And I beat out all of those other students with a freakin' research paper!
Wow.
P.S. Pharmacology in 8 days! So much for my one month of glorious vacation. Except that I am working full time. Sigh...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Dear world,
I'm going to emote a little bit. This might be a little on the not-fun-to-read side, but I'm more writing it for me than for anyone else.
I... am single.
For the first time in 2 years, it's finally irrefutable that the boy I fell head over heels for in December 2006 is not the man of my dreams, and will never be the man of my dreams.
All that talk of engagements and weddings and babies and small town bliss and the future - gone.
I gave it my best shot. I probably gave it more than I should have, and I probably took more emotional battery than a reasonable person would have. But I wanted to have no regrets when it was over, no thoughts that I could have done something differently or said the right thing and saved a beautiful union.
Regrets? I have none.
I know that I am a deeply caring, gracious, intelligent woman and I'm positive that some man out there will want to respect me and honor me, and fight for me if that time ever comes. Someone who doesn't value appearances and money over integrity and respect. Someone who isn't content to let the world come knocking - he goes out and seeks to expand his worldview and challenge his mindset. He examines all sides of a situation and bases his decisions on critical thought. He has a softness in his heart to allow for the unbridled worship of a God greater than he.
More than anything, he's as committed to my well-being and happiness as I am to his.
I've got a lot to offer.
I'm stronger for this, I know I am... but I'm still mourning the loss of a future that will never be.
I... am single.
For the first time in 2 years, it's finally irrefutable that the boy I fell head over heels for in December 2006 is not the man of my dreams, and will never be the man of my dreams.
All that talk of engagements and weddings and babies and small town bliss and the future - gone.
I gave it my best shot. I probably gave it more than I should have, and I probably took more emotional battery than a reasonable person would have. But I wanted to have no regrets when it was over, no thoughts that I could have done something differently or said the right thing and saved a beautiful union.
Regrets? I have none.
I know that I am a deeply caring, gracious, intelligent woman and I'm positive that some man out there will want to respect me and honor me, and fight for me if that time ever comes. Someone who doesn't value appearances and money over integrity and respect. Someone who isn't content to let the world come knocking - he goes out and seeks to expand his worldview and challenge his mindset. He examines all sides of a situation and bases his decisions on critical thought. He has a softness in his heart to allow for the unbridled worship of a God greater than he.
More than anything, he's as committed to my well-being and happiness as I am to his.
I've got a lot to offer.
I'm stronger for this, I know I am... but I'm still mourning the loss of a future that will never be.
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